Schoolgirl

Dear schoolgirl,

Do not be unhappy, I am here for you and will always do my best to be with you.

I enjoy the time when we are together. When you are not around, I think about you all the time. I wish for you to be happy and I hope, I can always be the one to make you feel better when you are down.

Perhaps I am already falling deeper into you.

I am sorry I have to go away and I only wish this few moments I can make you smile. When you are with me, I feel happy holding you, hugging you, taking care of you, all because you are my one and only school girl.

If fate allows, I hope you can be there with me.

Be happy when I am not around. If you feel down, think of me, knowing you are always in my mind.

I will think of you too. I will remember all the special moments we had and will treasure it keeping it close to my heart.

Maybe in the future when our paths do cross again, we can be together. Even if we do not, you will never be forgotten. Forever and ever.

Missing you already,
Schoolboy.

曾经拥有

如果你还是没法相信。。。真的没关系，我会安静的离去。

I Dreamt of You

Last night, never in my wildest dreams had you appear to me as radiant as you are. In the crowded room you stood out like no other. Your rose-red velvet dress that hugged your body revealed your voluptuous figure. I had my sights all on you, so did many others.

Mesmerized by your grace and glow, you walked slowly towards me. With your gentle steps and your flowing long hair, your body spoke of confidence and your eyes embracing me with your stare.

Many came to you along the way, but you did not take notice. You held out your hand to me and we embrace each other like there was no tomorrow. I held on to you tightly, feeling your body next to mine. The scent of you filled me with ecstasy leaving all my miseries behind.

I whispered words in your ear, and watched you giggle with your angelic smile. Your lips were luscious with a soft pink gloss. You gave me a soft peck on mine, your arms around my neck. I tasted your lips, it was sweet as honey.

"Let's go somewhere quiet", you whispered. You blew a soft puff of air in my ear, your little way of commanding me. As you took my hand and lead me beside the pool, we pulled away from the busy crowd. The music became softer and under the moonlight, you put your arms around me and we danced till dawn broke.

Dear Jon

8th May 2008:
JonJon, is that the way I want to call you now? I am not sure.

When did I first know you? I am not sure too.

All I know is that you are the best guy I have ever met. You are always there for me no matter what, where or when. You said, you liked me since I was having brown curly hair. That was quite a while ago and I did not know about it until tonight. I feel so stupid.

How can I not notice you when you actually do care about me so much? You have been there for so long and I was just treating you as a good friend. I should have told you earlier I like you too.

I did not.

Why, Wendi why? Perhaps it was because I knew both of us have our own relationships. I was afraid I will ruin everything plus I was not sure how much you like me. Oh, silly me.

Dear JonJon, I am really glad I found you now.

One Last Time

The door opened with you behind me. The silence between us had gone on long enough, but yet at this moment, speech is overrated.

From behind you held my hand, signalling me to take the lead. I reciprocated, squeezing your hand tightly reassuring you in return. I held your hands many times before. Yet, somehow this final time it was different. Your hand felt cold.

We reached home.

I sat on the couch. Releasing the grip of my tie I breathed a sigh. I heard your cries as you rushed upstairs.

I came up to you with the bottle in my hand. Your cries grew louder as you sat on the floor with your head on the bed.

As I sat next to you on the bed, you lifted your head up, tears flowing from your eyes. I opened the bottle and took it all in. You put your head on my thigh and I felt your warm tears.

I slipped into unconciousness and laid still on the bed. Your arms held on to my body as you opened another. You whispered in my ear, 'for one last time'...

Oh, Drama Queen

Give me time, give me space,
Give me an eye to the wonders of this face.

Sorry, I apologize. I have never felt like this before. I... was just too frustrated.

Stop the nausea, stop the drama,
Stop all the pretense that made you a diva.

I cannot fathom what made me this way. Right now, I cannot take it anymore.

Love can slack, love can crack.
Oh, how I wish you can change your act.

Please forgive me, I know it is all for the better. You and me.

Less serene, more gangrene.
You play the same old routine oh, my drama queen.

Solitary

Even with so many people around I still feel lonely sometimes.
In the middle of the night, I look for you and found solace in the stillness and darkness of night.

Take me away...